Stress can kill you I am convinced.
Last night, I had a meltdown. My body is feeling the effects of stress it aches and I have pains in my foot and leg. I was really thinking I am going to be completely physically disabled by the time this happens. You may think I am being dramatic but I am not. 
Seriously – I still cannot cry I think if I could it would really help.
I came to the realization today that I am fighting against what is happening that is what’s tearing me apart. I am not in the acceptance phase – I need to accept what is happening and move through the pain. When I am worried and pushing against it that makes it much more painful.
I ask God to help me find acceptance and peace. I need to find peace even if it is just for a short time.
