Living In Truth

Personal Stories of Triumph, Pain and Everything In-between…

Guilty pleasures or just self-sabotage?

I am really going insane – it seems I cannot stop eating Cheetos and drinking Rockstars. Every day I swear “NO I AM NOT GOING TO!”

Yet here I am another day indulging in my new guilty pleasures. Worse yet empty calories, plus I cannot afford the consequences of this choice.

I am already so stressed it seems this is what I am driven to. Guilty PleasuresJunk food and casino games, yes you heard it those stupid little games on your phone I just get lost in them.

Talk about unproductive – I have zillions of things to do on top of taking care of my husband. I just don’t have the desire to do anything else.

That is why last night when I answered the door with frizzled hair-like strands of spaghetti, my house a total disaster I didn’t care until I saw my husband’s son and daughter the son whom we have not seen for six months. Yes the snobby son who likes the finer things in life…

Why do people not understand, PLEASE CALL before coming – at least I can start throwing things into the bedroom or something?…

Yes, that is right – things are that pathetic and out of control right now…

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Signs of hope

I am sitting here working in my office and I hear a little bird chirp. It is September and that usually doesn’t happen until the spring.

It makes me feel happy like when there is a long cold winter and the snow has melted – and the signs of spring start showing up.

I always feel like spring is a reminder of the renewal of life. A sign that everything is going to be OK…

Maybe the bird is to remind me of that – I am in such a sad transition in my life.

Is it a sign – everything will be OK in the end ?

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