That is what I have been facing for the past month.
The fact is that my husband will never be the same and he will keep slipping into this abyss. My heart literally aches – at night I lay in bed beside him while he is sleeping know things have changed forever. I cannot stand it – I want to scream, run, punch someone anything. There is no rhyme or reason this has to happen.
We changed medications and he fell off a cliff. At times my husband doesn’t realize I am his wife. This among other things has my heart broken, I literally feel the pain – panic sets in and I cannot think. I hope I make it through – I pray that my strength will get us both through this grief…
I feel helpless, hopeless and lost
I am so very sad; it is an extremely hard day for me. My life as I know it will never be the same.
I knew that this time was coming, but I could overlook it and pretend things are fine until this week.
My husband seems to be going downhill, and I need to try to get him to let me take over and pay the bills. He has lost two checks and thinks someone stole his money – some woman. I am the only woman he has been with …
I need to start thinking seriously about how to handle things and what steps I need to make…
God please give me the strength to do all I need to do. Please give my husband piece and tranquility that no matter what happens in the end everything will be alright.
These types of gifts are rare should be appreciate and understood.
A gift can turn into something completely different if you let it, or if you don’t understand it.
I am going to sit with it, understand it and appreciate its beauty then move into life with the feeling of happiness, joy and serenity, as long as I can.